Waiting........................

it has been a long long time.i wait n wait n wait but at last i had get nothing.but wat can i do?the 1 tat i want din come 2 me the 1 tat i don't want always come.y everything r out of my control???i will be 18 soon,hope tat i can make my own chance after 18.but.......i don't dare 2 make my own chance and decide my way.this is because i m scare tat i will make a wrong chance,choice n way 4 myself.when it is wrong,i will not able 2 walk back to the starting point anymore.i will continue my wrong way until the end of my life.where is my road???????when will i know it??????????there are all question marks in my mind?????