19.2.2012

Just an update cause this blog had been left out for quite some time
the worst reason i get for myself
"got things to write but don't feel to write it"
sometimes need some privacy for myself so that i don't felt like "naked" in front of others
some kind of too weak huh

in the process of  trying to make some changes to myself
seems not so working yet
some time needed
so not much sharing in this useless post

TESL 2




we already past through 1 and half year although faced with challenge and difficulties
 i hope we still walk together for the next coming 4 years
WE ARE SPECIAL!
*heart*


current mood

no ideas with what is going on and not motivated 

bad sign thou lots of assignments, ISL, presentation floating 

and also

chewing too much snacks

feel myself getting fatter and uglier

gosh!

The Truth

It took years 
for something to give up and forget
Sometimes, people do asked but there is also sometimes, i do asked myself
why?
distance is the main obstacles?
or the roses that faded will never get back?
time flies, and people changed
as well as our minds, changed as we grown
now is matured enough to face the reality but not to dream anymore
the worldview started to be different
even the air that we breathe 
are not the same 



Decision had been made after thinking for such a long period of time
there is no more rooms for you anymore
it need to be empty and  open for somebody else
family, friends
but sometimes i did choose to be alone
i can't make others worry about me
and i don't want to answer the awkward questions for people who cares of me
"Why Single? ""Why don't give chances to others?"
" Are you trying to find the similar shadow?"
i had been tiring for answering the same question
the feeling of unsafe always remains 
alarm clock start ringing to be waken up from the past
told me to find back the pieces and stick it up
I am recovering 
I give everything to fate, and i believe the right one will come someday...

只要你勇敢地说出再见，生活一定会赐予你一个新的开始。

单身久了，就不想去恋爱，会感觉朋友越来越重要；单身久了，就不想去逛街，越来越喜欢宅家听歌；单身久了，就变得成熟起来，会比以前越来越爱父母；单身久了，就买很多鞋子，独自去很远的地方旅游；单身久了，不经意悄悄流泪，会在众人面前什么都无所谓。单身久了就变成了一种习惯。。

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Self entertain

Fine, Chap Goh Meh or Lantern Festival 

whatever...

not celebrate as i am not at home

*crying puppy eyes*

being hide in my hostel room alone for 3 days 

*not motivated*

thus, today award myself by making carbonara pasta for myself 

also as a sign of celebrating chap goh meh

#cook like a pro#

and healthy little tomatoes

why cny end so fast?!

i just felt rushing back home and rushing back for study 

can't have the free time to enjoy the real atmosphere 

#SELF ENTERTAIN TIME#

receive rose from girls junior

early valentine flower?

or they know i am single for the coming valentine?

anyways, thanks :)